I never wanted it to happen

To the one who used to be my so-called-bestfriend
Truthfully, I missed you. No matter how many times I told myself - not to, not to
but it never works out. I missed how close we used to, where you'd calm me whenever I'm stressed out, where you'd listen to my nagging about this about that, where you'd still be on my side even if I'm wrong, where I'd throw your pillow and tell you it's smelly and you'd still laugh about that, where I'd call you multiple times just to tell you " Hey, BIGBANG's latest songs are out, y'know! " and all the things we've done together before. I never thought our relationship would be destroyed like this. Nowadays, when I received good news, I thought of telling you but then, I remember, you no longer among the people that receive the news first, not even second or third, most probably you won't ever know. I know, we both agree that we'd make up but you and I, won't be on the same track anymore because I have Nelissa, and you have yours. Fine, I know. But just so you know, I really missed us. Pasts are past, I should move on. You should, too. You did maybe, I don't know. I will always pray that you'll be happy always, okay. But if one day you realize that you miss me - which because you always realize your feeling a little bit too late -__- you're like that you can always look back at our pictures together, read back all the text or you should give me a call you know who knows I answer, haha. So long~