I never wanted it to happen

To the one who used to be my so-called-bestfriend
Truthfully, I missed you. No matter how many times I told myself - not to, not to
but it never works out. I missed how close we used to, where you'd calm me whenever I'm stressed out, where you'd listen to my nagging about this about that, where you'd still be on my side even if I'm wrong, where I'd throw your pillow and tell you it's smelly and you'd still laugh about that, where I'd call you multiple times just to tell you " Hey, BIGBANG's latest songs are out, y'know! " and all the things we've done together before. I never thought our relationship would be destroyed like this. Nowadays, when I received good news, I thought of telling you but then, I remember, you no longer among the people that receive the news first, not even second or third, most probably you won't ever know. I know, we both agree that we'd make up but you and I, won't be on the same track anymore because I have Nelissa, and you have yours. Fine, I know. But just so you know, I really missed us. Pasts are past, I should move on. You should, too. You did maybe, I don't know. I will always pray that you'll be happy always, okay. But if one day you realize that you miss me - which because you always realize your feeling a little bit too late -__- you're like that you can always look back at our pictures together, read back all the text or you should give me a call you know who knows I answer, haha. So long~

apa yang saya lakukan kelmarin

Yay harini aku puasa setelah period cuma 3 hari :B baguslah aku pun malas nak ganti 5847593047 hari -.- Lepas sahur, aku tak mengantuk pun. Ajaib kan? Ye tahu. Semalam pergi KL beli bajuu, well and satu slack putih and dua blouse. Taknak beli banyakbanyak because later on keluar lagi beli lagi. Btw, ifong masuk hospital. Ah gila ah pakai phone tu =='' buat penat aku je nak update tu update nii then explodes macam tu je i was like >8|
Harini nak pergi ambil dah, and it cost me 80 bucks. okaylah, takdelah mahal macam mana pun. And Nelissa nak ajak keluar minggu ni yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay cool okay aku tahu and esok nak pergi Jalan 2 yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay idk apa yg bestnya yg penting aku pergi jelah haha okaylah bye~

something me

Hey hello !
Harini I have some stories to tell. Nyeh, now I realized that I fell for that killing-smile Adam, which is weirdly oddly things to do. y'know because I really doesn't need that for now. I don't know. I don't need help solving it either. Or I just don't talk about it often ? Well I JUST DON'T KNOW ! -___-' 
since this is a diary so, I first met him - er 14th July 2012, he said ' Hi ! ' and greet me - well that's his duty for that day, greet okay whatever not long after that, he's there, on the stage, giving out speeches. My friend, um happened to be his friend, told me that he's kinda close with my brother , well I didn't expect that, who would he's 16 fgs -.- oh ya, I knew that he was my mom's friend son because my mum asked me that if I know him because my mom knows him. Lalala, okaylah I already knew that I won't get him. I better off with my studies. Haha that's funny of me -.-
Oh ya, and I'm really scared. People's leaving that's why. One day, people will finally change. Even bestfriends. I told her - frankly that I'm scared to meet her. I, er, scared that she changes. I would cry back home haha lol no well maybe idk. I hope she's not. Heeh :<

Hii (: okay lama gila tak bukak bendalah nii, well nak post something what I obtained from 4 months hiatus. Ngeh, well this is Dara N.O.F.W.N ( yeah her name is Dara :p ) she's a best friend of mine, which is the one who understands me, and she's with me whatever it is. okaay whatever this is her 

i look very ugly here ): but anyway

Egaa, if you're reading thenn

hey missed you girl ;>

and anyway, bila aku dah balik je and bukan my own ex- bffl changes. even people pun kat sinii changes. Idk, aqilah and me changes a lot - i mean like, a lot y'know. we're not even best '' cousin '' we used to call it, it's the term, um some kind of - friend. and er, i don't know. maybe there are some that didn't change, or maybe they have but I can accept it. Nelissa, hm, nothing changes bout her. Maybe I don't feel it because well, we've been along for 6 years ( kinda glad of it lol ) and Nik, lol he's getting better ngehehehe ;D and Farnaaa, she's been loyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal yay sayang kau ! <: dua tahun kaaan ? 

Hm, yeah. These people are really should be call best friends. 

Oh yeah I never quit to be a BIGBANG's VIP so you know .. I just repeat the same last year mistake u.u not going to discuss it. Nyway, my heart flutters when I listened to Bad Boy because of his words ;A;

I was too harsh that night

I didn’t know you would really leave

The words, “I’m sorry”, is too difficult for us that we take it to the end

Because I’m ill-tempered

We fight over stupid things numerous times a day

You take off crying, I look around and think,

‘She’ll come back tomorrow. She’ll definitely call me first in the morning’

Here to listen <:

ni je kot for today. night. 

Something Hurt

I am now infront of ITTC Darussalam Gontor For Girls 1. Oh maaan, a few more days and then I'm going inside there back. Imagine how suffering I will be in there for about another 5 months before Ramadhan ? Actually, I wanted to tell you a story about something. About my room mate. Malaysian of course. Since this blog looks like my diary, I don't feel so like sinner I'm talking about her. Her name is Mufied; Mufidah Rayyana Binti Mohd Masruh. Jyeah, she's a daughter of an ustaz or other name is ' Badan Wakaf Pondok Modern '. Among the powerful people of Gontor. Eventho her dad have that name, she's such a screw up little brat. She have this habits, talking bad about people A at people B and talking bad about people A. She loves making people fight. I hate her sfdm. She loves to report everything at her sister that already Class 2 but in the same age as me but who cares bish I don't even give a fak okay. Mufi and all of her sisters are all the same. Looks good but an evil inside. She maybe have that cute little face but I think she looks like a asdfghjkl okay. And she love to acts like she's the only one that right but oh man I just love how shocked her face when she found out all Malaysian in ITTC Darussalam Gontor For Girls 2 hate her very much. She is so rude, bad, and she don't have any manners. For God sake, change ! She's trying to say that she's in Malaysia kinda hotstuff at SRD but trying to make her understand where is Bukit Bintang is so hard. A hotstuff doesn't know where is Bukit Bintang is impossible okay. She must be living under a rock or something. Urgh. But seriously, I hate that girl so much ! >,< I won't ever treat her well anymore ! Go die ah ! IHYSDFM !

3rd Day of Vacation

Harini adalah hari ketiga percutian saya. So maksudnya tinggal lagi 7 hari je :'(
Harini saya bangun awal pagi, solat and mengejar internet. Sebab pagi ni boleh bukak sekejap je. Lepas ni nak pergi sarapan and pergi Grand Solo Mall ( the biggest mall in Surakarta ) Yayy ! I nak shopping lah :') But takboleh membazir, ibu dah bagi 'warning' :P Semalam I webcam dengan Nelissa. Omaigod I miss her so much :'| rasa macam nak book flight and lari naik flight tu pergi Malaysia and tk nak balik sini balik. But tu semua expectations je, bukan reality -____-'' Btw, semalam pergi makan dekat Adem Ayam, I makan bubur :3

Nahh, here the pictures ! :DD

Okaylah, I think sampai sini je dulu cause nak mandi, lapaaar. Bye, assalamualaikum >:3

Hidup aku dekat pondok

Haa, macam tulah. Penat, meletihkan. Tapi semua ni untuk ibu :')
Ni dapat online. Esok peperiksaan. Aku harap boleh habiskan sekolah secepat mungkin. Nak balik Malaysia. Nak duduk kat rumah. Banyak betul dugaan duduk sini >:( Sabaaaar. Tapi aku nak pandai bahasa secepat mungkin. Boleh jadi translator. Aku rindu Nell. Alalalalaaa, nak duduk kat Malaysia.Aku tak rindu orang lain pun, except Nelissa, BIGBANG and my family. Jangan tanya kenapa. Entahlah. Okaylah, taknak lamalama kat sini. Tu je lah. between 30Jan - 5Feb aku update lagi eh. Okaaay byee ;')